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  She took a sip of her wine. “I don’t care. I’m just wondering.”

  I finally looked at her. “Did you finger yourself?”

  “No.” She took another drink of her wine.

  I wiped my face with a napkin then pushed my empty plate away. It was nice to have a home cooked meal. If I ate another pizza I would hurl.

  “Are you going to answer me or not?”

  I looked away. I don’t know why I was so uncomfortable with this question. She said she didn’t care, but I felt ashamed for doing it. Now that we’re engaged, I felt bad for pleasuring myself on my own. I didn’t need to. I mean, I only did it because she was gone, but I still felt guilty. I knew chicks didn’t like it. “Yes.” I looked away.

  She smiled. “That’s hot.”

  I turned my head quickly and looked at her. I was shocked. “What?”

  She finished her wine then returned the glass to the table. She rose from the chair then grabbed the dirty plates and dropped them into the sink. When she came back to the table, she sat in my lap. Now that her face was next to mine, I couldn’t look away. “Did you think about me?” she ran her finger through my hair then kissed my neck.

  I swallowed the lump in my throat. “Yes.”

  She kissed my ear. “Good.”

  I moaned. “You aren’t mad?”

  She kissed the corner of my mouth then trailed her kisses to my chin. “No,” she whispered. “I think that’s really sexy.”

  I smiled. “You think me jerking off is sexy?”

  She nodded. “I want to watch you.”

  I felt my spine shiver. “What?”

  “I want to watch you please yourself.” She ran her hands up my shirt and felt my chest. She scratched me lightly with her nails.

  “Are you being serious?”

  She licked my lips. “Yeah. Do it for me, Sean.”

  I swallowed the lump in my throat. “You really want me to?”

  “Yes, please.”

  “You’re so nasty.”

  “I know,” she whispered. She grabbed the rim of my pants and pulled them down. My cock was hard and it sprung out of its restraint immediately. I had never let someone watch me jerk off before. I was immensely turned on that Scarlet was so sexually open-minded. I knew she had never been like this in her past. She was only like this with me. I felt slightly embarrassed by the idea. “Come on.”

  I moaned at her words.

  She grabbed my hand and placed the fingers around my shaft. Then she started to help me caress the tip and the base. I started to breathe heavily as she and I stroked my cock together. Scarlet removed her hand and pulled off her shirt then unclasped her bra, leaving her tits bare to me. She knew I loved her tits. They were big and beautiful. Fluid started to leak from the tip of my dick. It formed a bubble then dropped down the side.

  Scarlet stared at it. “Yum,” whispered.

  I shivered again.

  She scooted back then bent her head down. She licked away the juice then shoved my entire cock into the back of her throat. I moaned so loudly that it was almost a scream. When my dick was wet enough, she came back up. She scooted closer to me then placed my hand back on my wet cock. I was so horny I thought I would explode.

  She licked her lips as she stared at my dick. “Come on.”

  I started to stroke myself. I was ashamed, but so turned on I couldn’t stop. I moaned. “Scar.” Her saliva on my dick provided just enough friction. She grabbed my other hand and placed it on her breasts. I squeezed it gently as I stroked myself. “Scar.” My breaths came out raspy.

  “Come on, Sean. Faster.”

  I increased my pace and moaned. I was breathing heavily. I clenched my hand as I rubbed myself, making me shake with pleasure. It was a tight fit. It felt exactly like Scarlet’s pussy. I loved her pussy. Even though I was big, she had remained small for me. I hoped it would stay that way after we had kids. It felt so good that I felt embarrassed. I closed my eyes.

  “Babe, look at me.”

  I opened my eyes.

  “I know you like my tits. Look at them.”

  I continued to beat myself hard. Then I glanced down to her swollen breasts. Her nipples were hard. “Scarlet. Fuck.”

  She leaned toward my ear. “What are you thinking about?”

  “Fucking you.” I breathed.

  She pressed her breasts against my chest then leaned back. “Come for me, Sean. I want you to come on my breasts.”

  “Scar.” My hand moved faster. I felt the orgasm build in my balls then run up my shaft. My body started to shake.

  “Come on, babe. Come on. Come on me.”

  “Scar,” I cried as I felt the orgasm shoot out of me. She leaned over and let me cum on her breasts. Watching myself gizz on her was enough to make me cum again. When I was done, I leaned my head back and closed my eyes. That was the dirtiest sexual experience I ever had. It was immensely satisfying, but I was also ashamed of my nastiness. When I opened my eyes, she was wiping the fluid with her fingers. She stared at me while she licked her fingertips.

  I moaned as I watched her. “Scar.”

  She licked the rest of it away.

  “Fuck, Scar.”

  She leaned into me and rested her forehead against mine. “I loved watching that.”

  I closed my eyes. “You don’t judge me?”

  “That was so hot.”

  I smiled. “Really?”

  “Yeah.” She ran her fingers through my hair. “I love watching you get off.”

  “You don’t care if I masturbate?”

  She shook her head. “Not as long as I get to watch.”

  “You are such a whore, Scar.”

  “You like me that way.”

  “Fuck yeah I do.”

  She kissed my head then pressed her lips against mine. “Do you masturbate often?”

  “No,” I said. “I did it when we were apart because I was horny as hell.”

  “But about when we were together?”

  I shook my head. “I’ve never masturbated while I’ve been committed to you. I can barely please you as it is. You think I have enough mojo to jack off in the shower too?” I laughed.

  “But what about when you were with Penelope?”

  I didn’t like talking about her. I answered her anyway. “I did a few times.”

  “Why?”

  “I wasn’t satisfied.”

  “Do I satisfy you?”

  I stared at her. “You’re sexiest person I’ve ever been with. I’ve never been with a girl that was so kinky that she wanted to watch me jerk off. That’s hot, Scarlet.”

  “Did you masturbate when I left for Seattle?”

  “Yes. A lot, actually.”

  “And what did you think about?”

  I sighed. “Both of you.” I looked into her face, expecting to see pain but I only saw love.

  “Do you watch porn?”

  “Not really. I just think about fucking you. That works for me.” I leaned forward and sucked on her nipple. “Now I want to watch you, Scarlet.”

  She smiled at me. “You want to watch me finger myself?”

  I nodded. “I want to see you make yourself come.”

  “It feels better when you do it.”

  “Have you fingered yourself before?”

  She nodded. I felt my dick get hard. “Then let me watch you.”

  “I don’t know.”

  “You made me do it.”

  She smiled. “But that was different.”

  I rose from the chair then carried her into the bedroom, placing her on top of the bed. I stripped off my clothes then lied beside her. She stared at me, waiting for me to say something.

  “Get me wet, Scar.”

  She leaned over and inserted me within her mouth. After a few strokes, I was soaked. I pulled her head back before I exploded in the back of her throat.

  “Now finger yourself.” I grabbed the base of my dick and started to rub myself.

  “You’re going to jerk of
f to me fingering myself?”

  “Damn right I am,” I said. “Come on, babe. This is the hottest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Don’t pretend you’re innocent. I know you aren’t.” I grabbed her hand and placed it over her crotch. I inserted my fingers inside her and felt the dampness. “Do it.”

  She unbuttoned her pants slowly then removed her underwear. I stared at her hand while I held my dick still. She extended two fingers then inserted them inside of her. I started to jerk myself aggressively.

  She moaned while she bit her lip. She closed her eyes then leaned her head back.

  “Come on, babe. Make yourself come.”

  She moaned again as she separated her legs. She started to finger herself harder and moan loudly. “Oh yeah.”

  I watched her as I stroked my dick. The sight was enough to make me come without touching myself. I felt the orgasm build and ignite inside me. I moved closer to her and aimed my dick at her breasts. “Keep going,” I said through heavy breaths.

  When she stared to moan uncontrollably, I knew she was having an orgasm. The sound shattered my control and I exploded. My cum shot onto her breasts while she fingered herself harder. I thrust forward as the last of my fluid came out. With a loud yell, I fell back, my body spent.

  Scarlet breathed quietly then removed her fingers. When she brought her hand to her chest, I grabbed it and licked her fingertips clean. She bit her lip as she watched me.

  “You taste good,” I whispered.

  She moaned.

  I stared at the drizzle on her chest then leaned over to her. I kissed her forehead then pressed my face closer to hers. “I love this.”

  “I do too.”

  “I love you so much.”

  She smiled. “I love you too.”

  “I mean it. I love that I can experience all of my sexual fantasies with you and not feel ashamed about it. I’m glad that I can fuck you and make love to you whenever I want. I love that you beg me to fuck you during a commercial because you are bored. I love everything, Scarlet. I really do. I can’t wait to spend forever with you.”

  She rested her hand on my cheek then kissed me gently. “I can’t wait either, babe.”

  “You’re everything to me.”

  “I know.”

  “Please don’t ever worry about me cheating on you. There’s absolutely no reason why I ever would. You are the kinkiest, nastiest girl I’ve ever been with. And knowing that you’ve only done this with me makes it even better.”

  “I know, Sean.”

  I kissed her forehead. “Love you.”

  She smiled. “I know you do. I’ve loved experimenting with my sexuality with you. It feels really good.”

  “I’m glad I make you feel that way.”

  “When we had sex the first time, it blew my mind. I’ve never came like that before.”

  I smiled. “Because you’re in love with me.”

  “Madly.”

  I rubbed my nose against her.

  “Sean?”

  “Hmm?”

  “Do you have any other fantasies?”

  I stared at her. “What do you mean?”

  “Is there anything else you would love to do but would never admit?”

  I felt uncomfortable again. Since Scarlet was so open about masturbating, she probably wouldn’t care about anything else that I wanted to do. But still, it was a private thing. “Yeah,” I said quietly.

  “Tell me.” She ran her hand up my chest.

  “I don’t know.”

  “Tell me,” she said firmly. “I might do it.”

  “I don’t want you to feel pressured.”

  “I won’t.”

  “Will you think less of me?”

  She smiled at me. “I’ll think more of you. We’re going to spend the rest of our lives together. I want to please you.”

  “Will you tell me yours?”

  “Yes.”

  I smiled. “I think we have an agreement, then.”

  “Good.”

  I was quiet for a moment. It was still hard to talk about. I knew Scarlet wouldn’t judge me, but I was still embarrassed about it.

  “Sean.”

  “I really like anal sex.”

  She stared at me for a moment. “Have you had it before?”

  I swallowed the lump in my throat. “Yeah.”

  She smiled. “We could try it.”

  I shook my head. “I would love to, but I—I’m already big for you as it is.”

  “It stretches too, babe.”

  I felt my body shiver at the thought. “I don’t want you to do something you aren’t comfortable with.”

  “Well, how will I know unless I try it?”

  “Really?”

  She smiled. “I’m sure I’ll enjoy it. Did the other girls?”

  I felt my heart drop. “I don’t like talking about women I’ve been with. They don’t matter anymore, Scar.”

  “I know,” she said as she ran a hand through my hair. “I was just wondering.”

  “They did. Some more than others. Sometimes it was just painful.”

  “I want to try it.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “Yeah.”

  “Please don’t do this just for me.”

  “I’m not. I’ll probably like it.”

  “It may take a few times.”

  She smiled. “Good.”

  I tried to stop my body from shaking, but I couldn’t. Scarlet was amazing. She was the best lover I ever had. I was so happy that she was willing to be so adventurous in the bedroom. Penelope refused to have anal. In fact, she only took it in the missionary position. Scarlet was absolutely perfect.

  “You are excited, huh?”

  I smiled. “Is it obvious?”

  “I’m excited, too.”

  “Well, as soon as I’m ready, I would like to do it.”

  “I look forward to it.”

  “I’ll have to make you really turned on so you’ll loosen up.”

  “Even better.”

  “I guess I’ll start now.” I leaned over and inserted two fingers in her. While massaging her, I started to rub her clit forcefully. She leaned her head back and closed her eyes. A moment later, she was moaning. I leaned over and kissed her gently. She ran her hands down my back as she scratched me. Within a few minutes, I was hard and ready again.

  “I need you to suck me again, babe.”

  She did as I asked and went down on me. When I was wet, I pulled her face away.

  “Get on your knees.”

  She turned over and bent over in front of me. I couldn’t hide my excitement at this point. My cock started to drizzle with liquid. With shaky hands, I massaged her back then her neck. Then I pressed my penis against her vagina and inserted myself slowly. She started to moan for me and I knew she was about to explode. Before she came, I pulled out again.

  I pressed my dick against her ass and inserted just the tip in. It was a tight fit. Really tight. I felt myself get harder at the idea of being completely inside. I was going to come quick.

  “Babe,” I said with a heavy breath. “If it hurts, tell me to stop.”

  “Okay.”

  I began the descent. Her body stiffened under me as I pushed deeper inside. My cock was barely inside and I was already stretching her immensely. I tried to control myself from plunging deeper. The last thing I wanted was to hurt her.

  “Are you doing okay?” I asked.

  “Yeah,” she said. “Is that all of it?”

  “Not even close, babe.” Slowly, I went further inside of her. Her breathing started to increase the farther I went. When I was halfway in, I started to bite my lip. It was so tight and warm that I thought I was going to come. “I’m almost there.”

  “You’re so big.”

  I shivered at her words. I kept going until I was entirely within her. I didn’t move for a moment, letting her body acclimate to my large size. “How does it feel?”

  “Huge.”

  “Does it feel g
ood?”

  “Yeah.”

  I stared at her ass as I started to fuck her. I was barely moving, but I knew I had to keep my pace slow. It would take several times before I could fuck her like an animal. The skin was easy to tear and I didn’t want to make her bleed. I already felt my orgasm start. “Babe, I’m sorry, but I’m already about to come.”

  I inserted my fingers inside her while I fucked her from behind. My hips started to move faster as I felt the explosion rock my body. I made her come using my fingers at the same time. Her anus relaxed as she came and I fucked her a little harder until I was completely empty. When I was done, I pulled out of her slowly. She sighed as she lied down.

  “Did I hurt you?” I asked immediately.

  “It was a little painful.”

  I sighed. “It will be that way for the first few times, but we never have to do it again if you don’t want to.”

  “I want to.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “Yes.”

  I moved closer to her then started to rub her back. I massaged the soreness of her body then ran my fingers through her hair. I waited for her to fall asleep before I went in the bathroom and showered. When I was done, I came back to bed and cradled her to my chest.

  I kissed her forehead. “I love you.”

  30

  Scarlet

  “You guys have been together for over six months and you just had anal sex?” Janice asked.

  “What?” I said. “I didn’t know he wanted to do it.”

  She rolled her eyes. “Every guy wants to do it anal.”

  I looked at Cortland. “Really?”

  He nodded quickly. “Yeah.”

  “Why?” I asked.

  He shrugged. “It’s tighter, warm. Most guys don’t want to do anal if they are just sleeping around. It’s usually a relationship thing.”

  “Sean said he had a lot of anal sex,” I said.

  Janice drank from her coffee. “Well, Sean is gorgeous. He can make a girl do whatever he wants.”

  I stared at her. “Have you and Ryan done it?”

  She raised an eyebrow. “Are you being serious? We did it the first week we were together.”

  “What?” I asked. “That was fast.”

  “Well, Ryan and I have never been traditional,” she said.