Edge of Love Page 16

  “You like that, babe?” I asked.

  She kissed the head of my cock. “Yeah.”

  I closed my eyes and moaned.

  She rose back to a stand and I unbuttoned her jacket. When I took it off, I felt a lump form in my throat. She was wearing black lingerie. The bra pushed her breasts together, making eye-catching cleavage, and she wore a thin black thong. She looked damn fine. I was excited by the sight. Underneath that jacket that was all she was wearing. And it was all for me.

  “Damn, Scarlet.”

  She grabbed my cock and stoked me gently. “Do you like it?”

  “Yeah, babe.” My breaths came out weak as she jerked me. I was already on the verge of exploding.

  She pushed me back on the bed and pinned me to the mattress. She leaned over me and I could see her breasts hang over her bra because it was so tight. I felt my body shake.

  “I want to fuck you, Scar. Hard.”

  “I know.” She smiled at me then bent her head over my crotch.

  Before her lips touched my head, I felt my body tense with excitement. I loved getting head. I wanted to fuck her, but I also wanted this. Her wet lips surrounded me and I moaned loudly. “Scar.” Her tongue circled my head and sent waves of pleasure through my body. I grabbed her head and pushed my dick inside of her throat. I felt the tip reach all the way inside. She gave amazing head. She was always able to take me entirely and she never gagged. “Fuck yes.” When I felt the orgasm building, I pulled her mouth away. I didn’t want to come yet without getting her off first.

  “I’m fine, Sean. Let me please you.”

  I moaned. “I want you to come.”

  She lowered her head down again. “Let me prove how sorry I am.”

  I leaned my head back and closed my eyes, surrendering to her moves. When I felt myself start to come again, I pulled her mouth away. Before she could protest, I pulled her on the bed and climbed on top of her. I threw her legs over my shoulders then slipped inside her.

  She moaned as I stretched her. She was soaked.

  “Yeah, Sean.”

  I pounded into her quickly. Her body immediately clenched around me and I knew she was about to have an orgasm. She was already so aroused it didn’t take much work on my part. I felt like I was ready to explode, so I tried to think of other things so I wouldn’t come. The sound of her screams made it difficult to concentrate on anything else. Her breasts jiggled while I pounded into her. When she grabbed my ass and pulled me deeper into her, I knew she was coming. Her nails bit into me and she was screaming. I knew the neighbors would complain in the morning, but right now I couldn’t care less. I wanted to give Scarlet as much pleasure as she gave me. When her moment was over, I rolled on my back. “Now you can make me come.”

  She climbed on top of me and went down on me again. I fisted her hair as I watched her shove my dick in and out of her mouth. The sensation of her tongue and the view of her sucking my cock was enough to make me explode. I leaned my head back and closed my eyes. “I’m coming.”

  She moved faster.

  “Yeah, I’m coming. Fuck Yeah.” I felt myself explode inside of her and I moaned as the orgasm rocked my body. She kept going, making my orgasm last as long as possible. My body trembled as the pleasure overcame me in waves. It felt so good that I couldn’t stop. “Scarlet, babe.”

  When I was done, I lied still and caught my breath. Scarlet crawled on top of me and straddled my hips. She started to rub her fingers into my muscles, giving my arms and chest a massage. It felt really good. I came while lying still and now I was getting a massage. I felt my mind become blurry. I knew what she was doing. If I fell asleep, she could stay here and sleep with me.

  “You can’t sleep here,” I whispered.

  She continued to rub me and didn’t respond. Her fingers moved to the back of my neck and it felt wonderful. I overcame the pleasure I was feeling and sat up.

  “I’ll take you home.”

  She sighed then crawled off of me. She pulled her panties back on and buttoned up her coat. She didn’t say anything, but I knew she was hurt by my words. I told her I was taking advantage of her to begin with. I never lied to her about my intentions. I dressed myself then we left the apartment.

  We didn’t speak on the cab ride home. It was slightly awkward. I kept glancing down to her thigh, knowing that she was almost naked underneath. It was enough to make any man melt. When we arrived at the building, I escorted her to Ryan’s apartment. When we reached the door, I waited for her to grab her keys and insert them in the door. She just stood there.

  I said nothing and waited for her to go inside.

  Suddenly, a tear fell down her cheek.

  “Babe, what’s wrong?” I grabbed her face and pressed my nose against hers. “Tell me.” I kissed the tear away.

  “Do you love me?”

  “Do you really need to ask that?”

  “Are you going to take me back? I said I was sorry and I meant it. Please don’t torture me like this.”

  I hated this. I hated hurting her. “I’m still angry, Scar. I can’t pretend that everything is okay when it’s not. I love you more than anything, I’m spending the rest of my life with you, but I just need space—that’s it. There is nothing for you to worry about.”

  “Please don’t leave me. Don’t leave me for that girl.”

  “Look at me.”

  She locked her gaze with mine.

  “Never. It’s only you, Scar. No one else. I love you forever.”

  She took a deep breath.

  “Please don’t worry about that. We’re still getting married and I’m still yours, but I need time apart from you. I’m still pissed at you and I don’t know if I can trust you again.”

  “So, we may not get back together?”

  I sighed. “I didn’t say that. I just need time to get over everything. I love you so much and I can’t be around you and act like an ass to you—you don’t deserve that. My love for you is unconditional. You don’t need to worry about that.”

  She sniffed.

  “Babe, it’ll be fine. I need some time to cool off. After your behavior for the past week, I’ve been really sick of your bullshit. The fight we had about the wedding never should have happened. You were being selfish the entire time, and now this Cortland thing. It’s—it’s too much for me. I need some time apart.”

  She started to cry. “I’m really sorry, Sean. I would take it back if I could.”

  I kissed her on the forehead. “Babe, I know.”

  She wiped her tears away. “Tell me you love me.”

  I looked into her eyes. “I love you more than anything in the world. You could do anything to me and I would always forgive you. I just need time, that’s all. I’m not trying to hurt you.”

  She nodded. “I know.”

  “I love you, Scar. I love you.”

  “I love you too.”

  “If these midnight fuckings are too painful for you, then we can stop.”

  “I want to make love.”

  I was quiet for a moment. “I can’t make love to you—not yet.”

  She nodded. “They don’t bother me.”

  “Okay.”

  “I get horny too.”

  I nodded. “And I don’t want to relieve those feelings with anyone else but you. I love being with you. When I said you were the best I ever had, I meant it.”

  “Okay.”

  “And Scar, if you ever need anything please call me. I need space right now, but if you really need me, I’m here for you—always.”

  “I know.”

  We were quiet for a long time.

  “You should go inside now,” I said.

  She nodded. “Okay.” She turned around and got the key in the door.

  I pressed my chest against her back then kissed her neck. “I love you.”

  “I love you, too.”

  When she got the door opened, I walked away and returned to my apartment. Now that I had gotten laid, I was finally able to fall as
leep.

  20

  Scarlet

  “Where were you last night?” Ryan asked when I walked to the kitchen table.

  I glared at him. “None of your business.”

  “You’re staying in my apartment. Yes it is my fucking business. I’m supposed to look after you.”

  I rolled my eyes. “I was with Sean.”

  Janice smiled. “Midnight humping?”

  I laughed. “Yes.”

  “Are you back together then?” she asked.

  I sighed. “No.”

  Ryan raised an eyebrow. “Then what the hell is going on?”

  “He says he needs space, but we miss each other sometimes,” I said.

  Ryan got angry. I wasn’t sure why he was upset, but I knew he was. “So, he’s just using you? Taking advantage of you because you’re the one who was wrong?”

  I shook my head. “It’s not like that.”

  Ryan glared at me. “I think it is.”

  “We’re still getting married,” I argued. “And we’re faithful to each other. But we’re fighting right now.”

  “Why can’t you fight while you live together?” Ryan asked. “What happens when you do get married? You’re just going to run here?”

  “No,” I said.

  “Are you sure?” Ryan said.

  “Yes.”

  He shook his head. “I don’t know about this anymore, Scar.”

  “What do you mean?” I asked.

  “You guys fight so much,” Ryan said. “Janice and I have been living together for a while, and when she moved in we barely knew each other. We hardly ever fight, and when we do, neither one of us leaves.” He looked at me. “That argument about the wedding was so stupid, Scar. I’m sorry but it shouldn’t have happened. And what was the first thing you did? You ran from him. If you had just stayed there and worked it out, all of this may never have happened. I don’t know if you are right together.”

  I felt my heart fall. “You mean you don’t think I’m good for him?”

  He sighed. “I just think you need to start reevaluating yourself, Scar. I know Sean made mistakes, but he’s redeemed himself in every way. You, on the other hand, are being ridiculous. To be honest, if Janice acted like that I wouldn’t put up with it.” He looked at Janice. ‘Sorry, baby.”

  She smiled. “It’s okay.”

  I sighed. “I admit that I was being childish about the wedding, but I still feel the same why about it. I don’t want to get married there.”

  “It isn’t just that, Scar,” he said. “You can’t run away every time it gets bad. First, you ran from New York, and then you ran from Sean, now you are running from him again—just stop doing it! I know you’re better than this. Sean is a great guy. I don’t want you to keep fucking up until he eventually gives up and realizes you aren’t worth it.”

  I ran my hand through my hair and tried to cover my face.

  Ryan bowed his head. “I’m sorry, Scar. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings.”

  I didn’t say anything.

  He stared at me. “And I think Sean is justified in being upset about the Cortland fiasco, especially when you were livid with him for not being completely honest with you.”

  I sniffed. “I get it, Ryan.”

  “But I know the guy loves you because he’s stupid and he’ll work this out with you. He knows you’ve never had a real relationship before. He’ll be patient with you. Just learn from your mistakes.”

  I nodded. “Okay.”

  “Do you want me to talk to him?” he asked.

  “No,” I said. “Just leave him alone.”

  Ryan sighed. “Okay.” He took a drink of his coffee and returned it to the table. “Are you going to change, Scar?”

  “I already did.”

  He nodded. “Good. I think you should go over and tell him that.”

  “I don’t want to bother him.”

  Ryan shrugged. “It wouldn’t hurt. Then we can go play basketball.”

  I sighed. “I don’t feel like it.”

  “Too bad. Now get going.”

  “Ryan?”

  “What?”

  “Thanks.”

  He smiled at me. “I’m just glad you don’t hate me.”

  “I could never.”

  “I know.”

  21

  Sean

  I woke up late this morning, but I slept really well. I still wasn’t used to Scarlet not sleeping beside me but I managed to fall asleep eventually. I missed her. It was a weird feeling. I was livid with her, but I missed her at the same time. I really wanted our relationship to go back to normal, but I couldn’t. I needed time.

  I went in the living room and ate cereal like I did every morning. Without Scarlet here to cook for me, I was stuck with the processed stuff. I missed hearing her sing in the kitchen while she made pancakes on the stove. I missed watching her wear my shirts while she walked around the house. It was like she was wearing a dog tag, but better.

  I sat on the couch and watched television in my gym shorts. I didn’t feel like moving today. I had to figure out what to do about my job. I needed to quit and find work elsewhere. I wasn’t planning on telling Scarlet about Maria, but then I realized how hypocritical that would be. I decided I would tell her after I quit and found another job. At least this way I wasn’t hiding anything from her and she wouldn’t have to worry about the situation at all. Scarlet wasn’t the jealous type, and I enjoyed seeing the color on her. Now that I was her fiancé, she was very possessive of me. When she started to lick my chest after we made love, I knew that’s when it started. I was hers and hers alone. I didn’t mind it at all. But in this situation her jealousy wasn’t unfounded. In fact, she was dead on about it.

  The knock on the door shattered my thoughts. I rose from the sofa and opened the front door. Scarlet was wearing jeans, her baseball jersey, and a baseball cap. She looked absolutely adorable. I loved it when she dressed like a sporty chick. It rivaled the lingerie she wore last night. I immediately wanted to hug her but I held it back.

  “Is everything okay?”

  She nodded. “I just came by to tell you something.”

  “Okay.”

  “I think my behavior for the past few weeks has been—inappropriate. I shouldn’t have been so upset with you about the wedding and I should have compromised with you. You’re right. I was being a brat.” I smiled. I liked this conversation so far. “And I also wanted to apologize for running away—all the time. I shouldn’t do that. I ran away from you when I left New York, and I ran away from you again. If we’re going to get married, I can’t do that anymore. That behavior is over. I won’t do it anymore.”

  I nodded. “Thank you for telling me that.” She just stared at me. “Come inside.”

  She walked through the door and stood on the rug. She crossed her arms over her chest.

  “Are you going to play ball?” I asked.

  “Yes.”

  “Sounds like fun.”

  “You wanna come?”

  I shook my head. “I shouldn’t.”

  She bowed her head.

  “Thank you for coming over, Scar.”

  “I’m just sorry about everything, Sean. I really hope you take me back. I won’t act this way anymore. I’ll do anything to keep you in my life.”

  “I know,” I whispered. “We’ll be together again soon.”

  “Well, that’s all I wanted to tell you.”

  “Okay.”

  She wrapped her arms around my neck and held me for a moment. I returned her embrace and held her. I knew she needed me more than I needed her at this moment.

  “I love you,” she whispered.

  “I love you forever, Scar.”

  She pulled away. “I’ll leave you alone now.”

  I nodded. “Okay.” I was about to reach for the door when someone knocked on it. I flinched at the sound. I wasn’t expecting company. I assumed Ryan had come to fetch her because she was making them wait for her downstairs. Whe
n I opened the door, I felt my heart fall.

  Maria was standing on the doorstep, looking as beautiful as ever. This seriously couldn’t be happening to me.

  “You wanna get some coffee?” she asked with a smile.

  Scarlet stepped away from me and covered her face. She started to cry.

  I glared at Maria. “Fuck off.” I slammed the door in her face. Since I was going to quit my job anyway, I couldn’t care less if they fired me. When the door was shut, I barricaded the exit with my body so Scarlet couldn’t run away from me. I knew how this looked—it looked bad.

  Scarlet turned away from me and tried to wipe her tears from her face.

  “Scarlet—”

  “Did you sleep with her?”

  “No—”

  “Then why is she here?”

  I sighed. “She is trying to get with me.”

  “How does she know where you live?”

  “We shared a cab last night.”

  “Did she come over?”

  “Absolutely not.”

  “She seems to think you’re interested in her.”

  “I’m not. I told her I was engaged a million times.”

  “Did you tell her that we are—fighting?”

  “No,” I said. “She thinks we are perfectly happy together.”

  She sniffed. “Did you sleep with her?”

  The question broke my heart, especially since she asked me twice. “Of course not.”

  “Are you lying to me?”

  “No.”

  “Then why didn’t you tell me that she’s been trying to sleep with you?”

  I took a deep breath. “I wanted to tell you after I found a new job. I was going to quit on Monday.”

  She nodded.

  I walked toward her and pressed my chest against her back. “Nothing happened, Scar. I would never do that to you. I don’t want her, just you.”

  “She’s beautiful, Sean.”

  “And you are absolutely gorgeous. Why would I want her when I have this? If I really wanted to fuck her, I would have done it last night. But I didn’t. I called you instead because I would much rather be with you than anyone else.”